The day is going by too slowly. At times I think God did this on purpose to us. Gave us hours, minutes, seconds, nanoseconds. All to punish me.
I am staring at a banner that is using a Ghandi quote about speed. Then it says, "Ghandi didn't use the Internet. You do." That makes me mad. Why would you use something like that to tell people to use high-speed internet? Of course Ghandi didn't use the internet. Computers were a no-such thing.
Jenna told me to control my hormones. That Sean could be the guy and not to screw it up and let him go this time. I love Jenna. I think that she is right. Its just a phase that I am going through. It's getting really close between us two and its the scary fact of commitment. But I think that once I get past this month, everything will come into perspective. Jenna doesn't want me to lose Sean this time. But when I told her who it was, she freaked. I mean she now knows why I am like...grrrr! But its not something that I going to hop on and even if I do, its going to be way after Sean and I break up, if we break up, you know? Mrs. Davis isn't here, like I stated earlier. So in her class, I am on the computer, typing away, Amanda making fun of what I wrote this morning. I couldn't think of the words to say so I just wrote down the sentences that came to my mind. But other than that this day has been unexciting so far.
Jeri and Tiffany were sorta getting into it last hour. It was funny. Tiffany and Jeri were going back and forth with insults and it seemed like Tiffany had something up her butt. Oh well, we had a show last hour.
My back hurts for some reason.
Melinda finally watched some of Empire Records last night. It was **tear**my little girl is growing up. She liked it. Thank God. That movie is really the bomb diggity!! I watched it like three times yesterday. Once while I was cleaning my room, once with Melinda, and once when I was falling asleep. I have memorized the lines in that movie, so that when I take my glasses off, I can remember what exactly the picture looks like and I know when the next line is coming up. I think that I am really retarded when it comes to my favorite movies.
I think that I am going to get off this. I might actually get on msn messenger tonight!!! Only is Sean works.
muah~
Becca*
"father of mine
tell me where have you been
you know i just closed my eyes
my whole world disappeared
father of mine
take me back to the day
when i was still your golden boy
back before you went away
i remember blue skies
walking the block
i loved it when you held me high
i loved to hear you talk
you would take me to the movie
you would take me to the beach
you would take me to a place inside
that is so hard to reach
father of mine
tell me where did you go
you had the world inside your hand
but you did not seem to know
father of mine
tell me what do you see
when you look back at your wasted life
and you don't see me
i was ten years ole
doing all that i could
it wasn't easy for me
to be a scared white boy
in a black neighborhood
sometimes you would send me a birthday card
with a five dollar bill
i never understood you then
and i guess i never will
daddy gave me a name
my dad he gave me a name
then he walked away
daddy gave me a name
then he walked away
my dad he gave me a name
father of mine
tell me where have you been
i just closed my eyes
and the world disappeared
father of mine
tell me how do you sleep
with the children you abandoned
and the wife i saw you beat
i will never be safe
i will never be sane
i will always be weird inside
i will always be lame
now i'm a grown man
with a child of my own
and i swear that i'm not going to let her know
all the pain i have known
then he walked away
daddy gave me a name
then he walked away
my dad he gave me a name
then he walked away
daddy gave me a name
then he walked away
my dad he gave me a name
then he walked away"
