wednesday night was sterling's party. omg. people were truly screwed up. i guess mue (sp) popped will in the mouth. will's braces cut up his lips, and mue's fist. the sophomores were being really stupid. they just wanted to fight everyone. brett was out there. brett was telling me that he wasn't going to hit the hard liquor but then they passed the everclear and he drank. bryant was messed up. i gave him a ride yesterday around 2 in the afternoon and he was still messed up. brett came to work with a major hangover. it was funny. so we worked together last night. whatever he was doing, i was doing. whatever i was doing, he was doing. last night tahj and smitty wanted me to come out to the lake to party. i had to catch up with sean.
**its spring break**major parties**
i think sean knows what i want to talk about. i don't know. i sorta hope he wants to make it work you know? yesterday when i finally caught up with him, he needed 75cents for gas. i couldn't speak a frickin word. it sounded like i was drunk. but i wasnt i swear. it was st. patty's day. i could tell they were going to. they were on their way to the softball field. he wanted me to come along. wish i could've. i had to be home. i was one minute late last night. lydia, next time you want a ride out there just call me up. you might have to direct me because i usually get lost up in there.
listening to marron 5's "harder to breathe". that whole albulm, songs about jane, is a very sexual albulm. last nigth brett and i were talking about it. hehehe. me talking about sex with brett. teehehe.
i'm supposed to get together with sean over the next few days, just me and him, and we are supposed to talk. i cant regret it if i don't try you know? the worst he could do is turn me down and laugh. i mean why would he want me back. i broke up with him and burned al bridges. i mean i was "the bitch that broke his heart." OMG i just realized the same scenario is going on in someone else's life at the moment. i remind myself of noelle. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!! this is scary. noelle and i are the same person. but i only broke sean's heart once and she broke chris's twice. omg. omg. omg. i a m g o i n g t o b e s i c k !!!!!
i am going to pick upt he kids tomorrow and go to lunch with them. i mean they need me now more than ever. tommy is in the mood and mind set that he needs to beat everything up. wyatt broke his wrist on a trampoline, and tori is as loud as a horn. i mean i love it when they come to my register and help me but tori was just really loud yesterday.
finger eleven is going to be on leno i think on thursday, next week, i think. thats what the edge said. i think.
my cat scratched my love handle the other day.
"...i am not the one to sit around and be played..."
i am drinking fruit2o's natural lime drink. yummy. i love lime water. and i love lemon water. i know i am a freak. for lunch i had a lemon pepper chicken salad with vidalia oninon vinergarette dressing. yummy. thank you mom!
i have 172 minutes before i head off to work.
i think i am going to go see if sean is "around".
muah~
Becca*
