Okay I know I haven't updated in forever. Okay two days but there's a good excuse. Okay maybe there's not. Anywho...
Sean and I are okay now. We talked. I mean really talked.
I feel really bad about Chris though. Sometimes I think that I was leading him on on this whole sharade. My parent's won't let me date him and Sean and I made up yesterday. He thinks that there still is a hope. I feel really bad about it. I haven't talked to him. I bet I will have to talk to him tomorrow at prom. Oh yeah tomorrow is prom!
I haev to pic up the corage and boutineere either tonight or tomorrow morning sometime.
I got an application for QuikStop yesterday. Since Melinda's last day is Sunday, they are going to need someone else. I want to work there soo badly. I need a job that I can wear my casual comfy clothes and not have to be the sweetest thing in the world. But I still will be the sweetest thing. That's just me.
Chris, I am really sorry. I am talking about renzou2k4.diaryland.com Chris. Babe I don't know what to say. Sometimes it seems like you are trying too hard to hold on to Noelle. I know that you love/loved her and its hard to give someone up that you love. Believe me I know. But just remember you are still in high school. Your life has barely began. You are going off to college...new blood baby! j/k Anywho. Chris I am here for you no matter what okay. What till June. I will be up there and we can hang out okay? Chris, lonely topher, I still love you aight! muah~heh.
suicidalmuse.diaryland.com, that dress is really cool. It is really pretty. It really is.
Well I am going to get off of here. More later.
muah~
Becca*
"I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh
So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn"
