Well I had an awesome weekend. It all started Friday night. We (as in we I mean Sheena, Randi, Sean, and myself) all hung out at The Corner, and fooled around like we all usually do...not that sickos...Well we all hung out and I had to be home around 11 because I had to get up early on Saturday for Regionals...which I didn't place at... so we were all standing around and Sheena and Randi went to Randi's house for a second to get Randi's clothes. So I turned to Sean and asked "Are we going to talk tonight?""We will here in a few." SO I was sitting around and it turned 10:45 and I said "well I am going to go and sit in my car and eventually leave." I got in my seat and Sean opened the other door and got in. I was laying there in the dark spacing out when I see his hand wave in front of my face. So I turned over to him and he said "I would really love to try it again."
"You know Sean when we first dated I was 15. I was stupid and had feelings that I didn't know about. And I hurt you and I want you to know that I will never do that again."
"Okay I know."
"So do you want to try it again?"
"Only if you are willing."
"I am. SO can we call it official?"
"Becca, whatever you want. We can call it official."
So we sat there in the dark just holding hands. Then we started to talk about college and he said:
"I am going to have an apartment off campus in Claremore. If you don't want to live on campus, you can live with me."
"Okay."
We just sat in the dark holding hands. Then it turned 10:53 and I decided that it was time to go. I turned to him and said bye. He kissed me. And not one of those whoa kisses, but a simple kiss. But I am telling you it was something that gave me butterflies in my stomach.
I asked Sheena if she still wanted me to stay with her on Saturday and she said of course.
All day Saturday was Regionals at RSU. We didn't get home until 10pm. So as I was approaching Git'n'Go I called sheena.
"Sheena here's the plan. I am at Git'n'Go. I will go home, get some clothes together, go over to see Sean for a few, then come over to your house."
"While you are over at Sean's tell him to come over."
"Are you sure you are comfortable with that?"
"Babe, have him come over, Chris is over right now."
So we all end up at Sheena's house: Sheena, Chris, Randi, Candace, Sean, and myself. Randi left at midnight, Sean and Candace left at 3 am. Chris left at like 3:30 am. Well throughout the night, Sean was sitting in the chair and I sat on the floor in bewteen his legs. Well he was giving me a massage and I think he wasn't meaning to do it but his hands got my ears. My ears are my spots. SO he found that out and would not stop blowing in my ears, or messing with my ears. Then we ended up on the couch after Candace got on the floor. Sean had a blanket and his feet were propped up on the coffee table. I laid a pillow in his lap and laid down. He laid his head on my shoulder and started messing with my ears some more. It so wasn't fair because there were so many other people there that it wasnt funny. Well he left and I watched him pull away. I didn't like that. Well Sheena and I cleaned up the house a bit and went to bed.
We got up around noon on sunday and decided to go and watch Dawn of the Dead. omg talk about a really scary movie. I jumped out of my seat like three times. I think Sheena broke my hand the couple times she would not stop squeezing my hand. When I came home I did two loads of laundry,did some errand running for mother dearest and Vaughn, little brother, saw Melinda cause we hadn't talked all weekend. She had a weekend of her own, what a weekend she had. Then I went and saw Sean. We hung out all night, I broke curfew. Only by half an hour though. I don't think that mom really knew. If she did, then she didn't care. I was with Sean.
She absolutely adores Sean. I told her about the moving in thing. She was like, "Well you will be an adult. Go ahead. Just no sex." But she looked at me with this look that meant I don't care if you have sex with this one. She is definately freaking me out.
Well I think that I am going to get off of here. I think that this is a fairly long entry. till later.
muah~
Becca*
"I paid my last respects this mornin' on an early grave
Already said goodbye, nothin left to say
A tiny church a tiny town and not a tear was spent
Not how I wanted it, I'm hating all of this
Well I'm hating, all of this
I'm hating, all of this
All of this, all of this
Now I know why, I hide my love from you somedays
No I don't mind keeping this bottled inside me
You came along, and tore this world out around me
Looks like you found me
Now I know why
I felt like shit when I woke up this morning
I've been a loser all my life, I'm not about to change
If you don't like, there's the door, nobody made you stay
There ain't a woman on the planet who can deal with it
Just how I wanted it, I'm hating all of this
Well I'm hating, all of this
I'm hating, all of this
All of this, all of this
Now I know why, I hide my love from you somedays
No I don't mind keeping this bottled inside me
You came along, and tore this world out around me
Looks like you found me
Now I know why
I felt like shit when I woke up this morning
All of this, All of this
Now I know why, I hide my love from you somedays
No I don't mind keeping this bottled inside me
You came along, and tore this world out around me
Looks like you found me
Now I know why
I felt like shit when I woke up this morning"
When Sean and I finally hooked back on that song was playing in my cd player. muah~
